i knowww

yes i know i havent blogged is say 5ish maybe months
i am not even in the least bit upset about it either
i dont mind the fact that i have left all of my many many followers out on their own to try and live without the grace and advice that my words bring to the world

i i i
me me me
my my my
bah!

lets not worry about me any more
or should we?
i often find it hard to accommodate a real balance between thinking of myself and thinking about those around me. often i will be working so hard to please others that i get frustrated when they dont do the same for me. it is especially hard because i hate to ask for things.
this is why it makes me so happy talking to my friend chad.
(i have only met him in person once but we still have what i would call a close friendship courtesy of the internet.)
chad owes me nothing and hardly knows me outside of our typed conversations but he still has the character to surprise me with something for my birthday
no i dont know what it is
or how expensive it is
or how long he plans on working on it
but i do know that he is doing it because he is a giving person
(and a practical joker)
sometimes its just nice to have someone who you dont need to ask things from
they take the initiative to do things they know will please you
no matter how small or big
i need more people like that in my life
i am tired of waiting on the ones who will never understand the power of small things
as emo and teen angsty as that sounds its the truth
just like a smile spreads
and although its always better to have 1 real friend rather than 100 fake ones
i would much rather have a dandelion a day for a year than get a rose for my birthday

moral of the story

100 dandelions > 1 rose

good day