it is over

all of it
well
not all of it
but quite a few doors in my life are shutting at this moment

for one i am moving out of carrots place

for two i am done with a semester or school

for three it is almost the end of the yearyear bye bye 2010

for four 2011 means im turnin 21 (im not old enough to do that)

for five im about to finish my wonderful apple

and for six

well no
there is no six
for now at least

in other news
i have been having the strangest dreams
in the morning i can always remember them too
sometimes i think im in inception because i keep having dreams in my dreams

alright now i got real shit to do
such as finish impossilbe soul
(this could take awhile)

people I am going to punch

1. Person snoring in the library
2. Person who kept farting in the library monday that would look up everytime he did it and put his arms up letting everyone know it was him.
3. Seriously this person snoring is about to get it

4. This post is rather pointless because I already tweeted about it but I enjoy over communication.

I think that if the man I want to marry snores it just won't work out I hate it

5. I thought of another... People who put too much personal stuff in their facebook info it's so gross

6. People who are bad drivers

7. People who like ke$ha

8. That's really all I have for now

its contagious

TOOMUCHCOFFEE= crazy lucid sleep

but thats okay because i feel 100 percent awake right now
and although yesyes i know i should be learning math or writing up some wc preguntas i prefer to sit here listen to some regina and do some bloggin

carrots spoke of some things she is thankful for this year so i thought i would follow up with the things i am thankful for also

i am thankful for my forgetfulness because it allows me to forgive easily
i am thankful for my unconventional nature because it keeps people guessing
i am thankful for my parents even if they cant manage to get along with eachother
i am thankful for my siblings even if we cant manage to get along with eachother
i am thankful that i live with lindsey (carrots) again even if its a rather strained living situation
i am thankful for regina spektor who is always my study music for late math nights
i am thankful for my friends who put up with me
i am thankful for my dog roxie roxy roxane
and also uncle remus
and also dora
even if she pees on my clothes

alright time to get some shut eye before my alarm goes off in an hour!
night yall

carrots

two r's
one t

steph wants to punch babies
dont take anthropology
it will make you want to do the same

i have math to do
but i wanted to post something

maybe because last night my journalism friends were talking about blogs
or maybe just because ive started to become fond of this

i like that i can go back and read my thoughts from a particular time
its a nice way to remember shit

and much better than a journal because this people can see therefore im not going to write anything too crazy or embarrassing that i will end up wanting to throw away.

this is all
for now

Its amazing

How did we ever get anything done without the internet?
Maybe this is why in my parents house there is a wall of unopened encyclopedias from back when a google was just a google and didnt answer all your questions.
Sometimes i wonder what the effects are from using the internet for everything, but because my brain is wired in 120 characters i dont get very far.

speaking of 120 characters sometimes when im walking or on my own my thoughts turn to tweets, as if my mind is one big twitter including pictures and #hashtags. when this happens i get kind of embarrassed and then think
" #iwonder how many people think in #tweets without knowing" yes i think thats how i would hashtag it in my inner twitter.

my computer is finally back to its old self
well
its new an improved old self
im so excited im trying to make the best mix tape in the world
i dont think it will be
but at least i can start practicing again

overandout

And now you know...the rest of the story

I feel a new post is in order.
Even if i have no particular idea or concept for this
i did start with something
as you can see from the title of this track
haha
track
im not paying attention
kanye is in my house
drunk
and taylor swift can drink more than him
usually this would be a weird thing to say but alas it is halloween therefore its absolutely possible
also "freeish" chipotle is all over the floor
this doesnt make carrots (cfln) very happy

now it is time for us to read out loud
its a sister thing

i knowww

yes i know i havent blogged is say 5ish maybe months
i am not even in the least bit upset about it either
i dont mind the fact that i have left all of my many many followers out on their own to try and live without the grace and advice that my words bring to the world

i i i
me me me
my my my
bah!

lets not worry about me any more
or should we?
i often find it hard to accommodate a real balance between thinking of myself and thinking about those around me. often i will be working so hard to please others that i get frustrated when they dont do the same for me. it is especially hard because i hate to ask for things.
this is why it makes me so happy talking to my friend chad.
(i have only met him in person once but we still have what i would call a close friendship courtesy of the internet.)
chad owes me nothing and hardly knows me outside of our typed conversations but he still has the character to surprise me with something for my birthday
no i dont know what it is
or how expensive it is
or how long he plans on working on it
but i do know that he is doing it because he is a giving person
(and a practical joker)
sometimes its just nice to have someone who you dont need to ask things from
they take the initiative to do things they know will please you
no matter how small or big
i need more people like that in my life
i am tired of waiting on the ones who will never understand the power of small things
as emo and teen angsty as that sounds its the truth
just like a smile spreads
and although its always better to have 1 real friend rather than 100 fake ones
i would much rather have a dandelion a day for a year than get a rose for my birthday

moral of the story

100 dandelions > 1 rose

good day

never have i ever...

never have i ever
ever ever
had a time in my life where i could not find a song to describe how i am feeling
i need my sister to come home and guide me to something
ya know?
that something that you can listen to 100 times and still feel like there are a few more listens before you are done for the day?
the something that you can scream to in the car
or cry to in your bed
or laugh to with your friends
just something
preferably a song
with inspiring words
and dramatic music
and reminds me that although things might be a bit confusing now they will turn around

kinda like when i was little and for reasons i cant remember and wont attempt to acknowledge i would end up crying in front of my family, usually in the car, and someone would do a terrible unjust to my sorrow and make me laugh. i would end up laughing and crying and feeling awful but somewhat better than when i was just crying.

i just need that something


for now i will deal with the massive amounts of cds lindsey lead me to under her bed
and use them for a temporary band aid

adiós

once again

once again i find myself wasting precious minutes doing unnecessary things ie: facebook, stumbleupon, youtube, bloggingshit,

anyting so that i dont have to face the fact that my first final(of three that are back to back) is in aprox. 16 hours and i have nothing done to be ready for any of them
here is my list of things i NEED to do be be even the littlest bit prepared:

1. write 31 more questions for wester civ ( it has taken me about an hour of serious labor to crank out the first three)
2. complete my entire pre calc review plus go over old "exit papers"
3. remember all the usless things i have learned in yoga about focus and the importance of centering ones self or some other bullshit like that that isnt helping me in the least bit at this moment.

please
pray
for
me

if thats your thing
if not
please
come
do
my
questions
i will do the rest


live long and prosper
signed
soon to fail

ill try one more

lindsey wrote another beautiful blog
so i should probs follow the tradish
and attempt one myself

although i should really be writing questions for my western civ class that starts in about 32 minutes ill negate my schooling obligations in order to fulfill my unspoken agreement to cfln.

today is crazy day
or something of the sort
everyone is outside walking around to all the booths with people smiling and giving out fee stuff in hopes that kids at jccc will decide to take some initiative in their lives... little do they know this tactic is truly just wasteful. the young adults you just gave free stickers to will soon lose them in the wind and those yummy cookies all the grubby hands reached for only to find out they were full of nuts are probably going end up in the trash or crunched on the lawn (unless someone wants mine)
although this fair is quite exciting and the band "karaoke" is playing (yes you are very right in guessing this band plays and invites whoever wants to sing to come up and sing...lame gimmick or brilliant marketing strategy you be the judge)it is almost unfair that they had to plan this shindig two weeks before finals...i have to go to class i can not just skip to watch some silly anime kids singging their little hearts out to livin on a prayer or even better 'Bohemian Rhapsody' (gaaaag)
sommer and i sat on the hill for a few acts giving people numbers as if we were the judges then it was time to stop all the tomfoolery and go to math
i almost would have rather watched more wanna be queen acts
almost
blah blah
im done
i reallly do need to do class shit
fmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmml

Nancy Drew and new playlists

Because my beautiful sister Lindsey (carrots from last night) Fisher is a forceful presence in my life.
pretentious bitch

i dont want to blog

the end